So I would like to take a moment just to explain some things I've been dealing with, and why I basically have not been around for over a month now.
Just a bit over a month ago, I went to the hospital for some things, which turned out fine. But since then I had anxiety attacks at least once a day, sometimes up to three to four times. It was really rough dealing with it, and had one of the worse anxiety attacks I've ever had, lasting for about 3 hours before I was calm enough to go to sleep. I have generalized anxiety disorder, which means that my triggers can literally be from anything. It could be my stomach, it could be a feeling of being trapped (I also have claustrophobia), it could be me stressed out, or feeling sick, or really just anything. I went to my doctors a few times because of it in the past month, and I almost never go there, so it was really bad.
As a result of all of this, I have decided that I needed to go back to being on medication; something I haven't done since high school. I really didn't want to be on meds again, but it was just getting really bad. I didn't want this relapse to get worse, especially since school and stuff. So I've been coping with that. However, one of the biggest reasons I have not really returned was because I think the stress of everything I had to do was what made me unable to control my anxiety levels like I've been able to do regularly for the past 4 years now. School was coming up, and last fall killed me, so I was really worried about this fall (and I'm taking 19 credits, which is about 10 classes, so it's understandable to be stressed). I also had auditions to deal with, and marching band, especially now that I'm on a leadership position that requires me to be more active with that. And yes, I was stressed about the marioboards and making sure that all the things I wanted done here (mostly in the Mafia board), were done.
In order for me to mentally recover a bit and not stress myself out, I took some time to myself. Unfortunately that meant distancing myself from the marioboards, and sacrificing a lot of things I wanted to do, such as finish my mafia game. I was overloaded with everything on my plate and I pretended that I could handle everything, and I could not. I'm really sorry for my time of absence and with my sudden disappearance. This note is to let you all know what I've been dealing with, and why I am continuing to be putting this site on the backburner. I was still do what I can to make sure things are all good in the Mafia board, and now that everything has calmed down a lot with my anxiety and school schedule, I will probably check this site a bit more than I have the past month.
I hope everyone is doing well, I hope school is not killing anyone and everyone is surviving classes, and please make to take care of yourself physically and mentally.