I got a message from my cousin today that my grandma only has a few days left to live and that they've said goodbye to her already. If I disappear again, it's because I'm most likely going through grief in my own life.
I'm pretty scared of thunderstorms but I'm okay with there being one today if it means that all the oppressive humidity is getting dumped out of the air. Half the reason it felt so miserable all through last week is that it was so incredibly humid on top of being hot, so the air being less humid is a very welcome change.
The only reason I changed my name on here is because I changed my name in real life. I woke up yesterday and my brain decided that masculinity is a dead concept so I changed my name from Nathan to Natalie and decided I want to try to transition in the near future. Being LGBT is fun when you go four years without having any idea what to be.
One of the most fun things about being a trans girl is that you would never know I'm trans just by my name. I've never been able to feel comfortable with a female name so I have two male names instead, but I still identify as transfem and use she/her. Identity is great and definitely hasn't caused me any headaches over the past four years.