Natalie J.
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  • I picked a new name for myself. Now if only it wasn't so stressful to tell people in my real life.
    LeftyGreenMario
    LeftyGreenMario
    new irl name or a nickname?
    Natalie J.
    Natalie J.
    New IRL name. Like, one that I would actually get my legal name changed to.
    There's no stranger group of people than artists who ignore messages asking about commissions. I literally want to give you money and you're just going to ignore it?
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    Ray Trace
    Ray Trace
    I'm pretty sure the artists who ignore commission requests are likely occupied with something else. They might be already backed up with commissions or swamped with many requests that yours gets buried.
    Mcmadness
    Mcmadness
    I mean, some people aren't interested in money from making art or they are busy or just like making art at their own pace.
    Natalie J.
    Natalie J.
    But like, I've been ghosted more than a few times by artists who have their commission sheets as a pinned tweet. These are people who are looking to get money for their art and they just never respond when I ask about it. I don't get it.
    My dad and his friend Mark actually got me to really love a song from 2020. I didn't think that would be possible.
    Wait, wasn't December 24 a week ago? Does time not exist? Am I going to have to keep being anxious until tomorrow? Do I need to get psychiatric help with my anxiety?
    Natalie J.
    Natalie J.
    Yeah I just need psychiatric help with my anxiety. It's killing me so bad right now. I can't even open a DM because my anxiety is so bad.
    I have plans for today but it's going to be really hard not to constantly check my DMs to see what the Shroom team thinks of my writing.
    Natalie J.
    Natalie J.
    Don't get me wrong, I'm really proud of the story I wrote, it's just my fear of being hated for everything I do.
    Hooded Pitohui
    Hooded Pitohui
    I can understand the anxiety, and I know it's not easy to stop yourself from checking things when you're anticipating a message (I've found myself checking DMs over and over in other situations), but, if you can distract yourself with something, I'd recommend it. You should enjoy the New Year's Eve, find something that will relax you or at least give you a boost in your mood.

    (And, for what it's worth, applications tend to get closed out and sent off in the later evenings in the EST time zone. If nothing else, you can narrow down the window you're left anticipating a message.)
    Natalie J.
    Natalie J.
    Hopefully I'll be playing Jackbox and maybe some VR this afternoon so that should help. I'm just glad you all have been so nice with how horribly anxious I've been. I really hope you all liked my writing, even if the application doesn't go through.
    The week of December 26-30 is just an anomaly to me. It's always so weird and blank and empty.
    My boyfriend got his booster today and his arm hurts. Someone please tell him to stop laying right on top of it.
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    Peachette
    Peachette
    I did the same thing lol, did it make him super sleepy too?
    I've never been called out harder by a stranger on Twitter than I was just now by "the neurodivergent urge to hide in the bathroom to take a break from social gatherings."
    I just had the idea to do like, a combination RP/CYOA thing on here so I can get some practice doing the serial update style.
    Odie
    Odie
    Sounds fun!
    I'm supposed to hear back from the Shroom team I believe on Friday and it's fucking killing me. Goddamn unreasonable fear of everyone hating everything I do.
    Waluigi Time
    Waluigi Time
    Trust me the 'Shroom team is very nice and cool, even if an application gets rejected they give feedback and suggestions on how to improve
    Natalie J.
    Natalie J.
    Don't worry, I know that, I've written for the Shroom before.

    ...don't read it, it's awful. But for the short time I did, I worked a lot with Stooben Rooben and he was extremely nice. My fear is coming from my irrational fear of being hated for everything I do. It's nothing against the team.
    Is it a social anxiety thing to say literally anything and be like "oh my god, everyone is going to tell me how much they hate me and don't care about what I have to say"?
    I'm the lil bro.
    I'm the lil bro.
    I think everyone worries a little bit about other people's responses from time to time. It starts counting as a disorder when that fear is debilitating enough that it's getting in the way of your life and difficult to manage.
    "What percentage of people online are looking at the forum list right now" is a fun game I like to play sometimes.
    I woke up to 42 retweets and 222 likes which is definitely more of a hit tweet than I've had all year so I consider it a win.
    G Major Steven Stone
    G Major Steven Stone
    Being constantly super excited that people care about something you posted on Twitter can start to lead to worsened mental health and other negative effects on your life though
    Natalie J.
    Natalie J.
    I'm more just annoyed that I keep getting notifications I have to clear. I'm one of those people who gets irrationally upset when people have a ton of notifications on the top bar so it bothers me when I keep getting them.
    I get that me and my dad's real life friend is just as into 80s music as I am but I didn't expect him to show up replying to me when I was replying to FTG of all people.
    I'm so fucking desperate for some physical interaction with someone my age. All I want right now is to spend a day with someone who isn't more than ten years older than me that would play Mario Party with me and let me cuddle with them.
    You gotta love it. My mom throws insults at literally everyone else but then gets upset at me for jokingly calling her a jerk.
    God, that story I wrote yesterday is easily one of my proudest works and I wish you could all read it right now. I'm not usually super proud of the things I write but even I think I did a good job.
    I had a fun dream where I was pretending to work at Walmart and trying not to be caught as a faker.
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