in a way this is also like why low poly art is awesome beyond nostalgic appeal and people are so mean 
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Lin Beifong
Hey, is everything all right? You said a while back that you were going on a hiatus because of personal problems?
If this place is hurting you in some way, or trapping you in a vicious thought spiral, it is okay to want to take a step back from it. You don't have to feel obligated to prove yourself to anyone here; this place is ultimately pretty unimportant. You can do something that makes you happy and adds something of value to your life instead. You don't owe us anything.
Take care of yourself.
If this place is hurting you in some way, or trapping you in a vicious thought spiral, it is okay to want to take a step back from it. You don't have to feel obligated to prove yourself to anyone here; this place is ultimately pretty unimportant. You can do something that makes you happy and adds something of value to your life instead. You don't owe us anything.
Take care of yourself.